You are truly the most delusional person I’ve ever talked to on the internet and that is saying something…. I was tempted to say you are blinded by your hate and fear, but I don’t think there is actual malice although the systems of fear you operate from do shield you from self-evident truths. I don’t wish that kind of pain on anyone. I hope that you will find some peace.
You have no wish to understand the world as it is — you think it should be how you imagine it. If you want real conversations you need to educate yourself on the things you are trying to discuss. But first, seek help with the fear thing. It’s like a haze all around you and you will never be happy or content until you work with it. And I mean that out of kindness and not condescension.