Thanks for sharing this so openly. I think it’s not something that most people, but certainly not most guys can quite wrap their heads around, but when you stop looking at your partner as someone who you own in some way, all kinds of things become possible.
I’m certainly very resonant with that empowered feeling of being the one who is taking the lead in a sexual situation. My partner likes to see me fuck someone else too, but he likes to be in the mix. MFM is my favorite sexual exploration (I love just being with James too) but there is something about being the focus of all of that masculine attention and also the excitement of being the one who is in many ways in charge. It’s hard to explain to someone who hasn’t witnesses or experienced it, but female sexuality has been so repressed for so many thousands of years, that when you get the chance to really unleash it and revel in it, not only do I get to have an amazing time, but I make sure that the guys involved will too — because I’ve gone to a kind of primal space that isn’t always present otherwise.