Thanks for sharing all of that. It’s a strange world where people would prefer to go behind their partner’s back then to honestly and consensually create a relationship that works for them both. That right there is a perversion if you ask me. I’m glad that you’ve found love again.
There are some good books out there about how to go about having these kinds of conversations (The Ethical Slut, for one) but I think that it’s best to focus on how any new arrangements might help your existing relationship. I know that’s what you were trying to do before, but it sounds like she was not all that emotionally mature. In any case, I wish you all the best. 💓