Science shows us that nearly all people who make accusations of sexual assault are telling the truth and we know exactly what kinds of people make false assertions. See the articles that I’ve previously linked for more about that.
If you have some baggage related to prior experience I understand that. We are all subject to the impact of our prior experiences, but as rational adults we need to transcend that in the present to take into account current data and science. Nearly all adult women who assert sexual assault are telling the truth. It’s just a fact. See the articles I’ve linked for very particular exceptions (which Dr. Ford does not meet).
When someone who has nothing to gain and much to lose; when the person they are accusing is not transparent and does not answer questions in the open and honest way that they did and in fact, makes all effort to obfuscate, evade and outright lie, then it’s pretty easy to determine who is actually hiding something and who is not.
You have pretty much just admitted that you are making decisions based in emotion and your own trauma. That’s not a fair way to judge any situation. It’s not fair to either party. I am approaching this from data, science, rationality and logic. Unless you can do the same, I’m not sure you have a leg to stand on.